After everything that happened at the end of last week’s episode, Asa decides to go even further this week. And at such a precarious time, too. Her aunt has a deadline coming up, so she needs to focus. As a result, Makio starts neglecting her niece. She doesn’t say hi to Asa when the kid returns home from school. She doesn’t eat dinner with the girl either. How much can it hurt to just say hello? How much can it hurt to just share a 20-minute meal together? But a hello can turn into small talk, which can then turn into anything — a conversation, a full blown argument, debate, etc. Makio needs to keep her train of thought going, and we already know how she isn’t the most organized person on the planet. If her attention wavers even for just a moment, it might take her forever to get back on track. This excuse doesn’t really fly when you’re a parent, but as Makio has reminded us over and over, she’s simply Asa’s guardian and nothing more. The look Asa gives her aunt as the woman is pattering away at her laptop feels almost disdainful. She then does what a lot of teenagers in her position are wont to do: she starts acting up by skipping class. I mean, if she’s going to be invisible to the people around her, she might as well not fulfill her obligations, right?

It’s kinda hard to collect my thoughts on this. There are just so many things to talk about sometimes.

Makio has finally finished clearing out her late sister’s apartment. She thinks it’s a little strange that she doesn’t feel sadder about the whole affair. Outside of society’s expectations, I don’t think it’s that weird. They weren’t close anymore, and they haven’t been close for years. Easily over a decade, actually. And it’s perhaps for that same reason that the woman can’t quite bring herself to read her late sister’s journal. Honestly, I don’t know why she would. They’re practically strangers at this point, so it feels like a violation of their privacy, dead or not. And from the first few words alone, you can tell that the journal was meant for Asa.

Asa used to watch musicians perform on TV, and her mother would tease her about possibly liking one of the guys onstage. The girl insists, however, that it’s the song she likes, not not any of the performers. Maybe she’s embarrassed, maybe she’s not. Maybe she just actually likes the music. But this is something parents seem to do a lot. My parents were the same way. I guess it’s fun for them or something. And because they provide for you, or because they’re higher up on the family hierarchy, they feel like this should give them carte blanche to do a little “harmless” teasing every now and again. I dunno, I think it’s shitty to make someone uncomfortable for your own amusement. Yeah, the kid will get over it, but that’s not a good argument in and of itself.

Makio says she can’t take on the responsibility of adopting Asa and becoming a foster mom. Hopefully, she never says that around the girl. She’s with her friends at the moment, and she should be able to open up to them about her true, honest feelings… even if some of those feelings are pretty silly. I mean, of course Asa can be immature at times. She’s fifteen! Makio also says, “Still, I cower at the thought of her being that woman’s child.” C’mon, they’re two separate people. Most of all, no kid wants to hear that they’re exhausting to be around. Makio keeps insisting that she’s barely related to Asa, but I have no clue what that means. Okay, I know what she means; what Makio really wants to say is that she barely knows Asa. But the kid’s literally your sister’s daughter. You are so related. There is just no relationship.