I get the urge to write sometimes, but when you’ve been away for so long, you just don’t know where to start. Basically, I can’t let go of this place for whatever reason. I still pay for the domain name just to never use it. I put so much time and effort into this place that I don’t want to let it die permanently. But it is dead. It’s been dead. It’s been dead for so long that the metrics no longer matter. If I want to shout into the void, I should. Just to let it out. There are no readers left to disappoint. No standards to uphold. And most of all, it just gets really annoying to try and make a point on Twitter/Bluesky only to have to break it up into so-and-so characters (I have no clue what it’s up to nowadays).
The urge is there, but history also tells us that it also disappears just as instantly. And with that said, I think that’s it for now. That’s all I’ve got. This post is like skipping a tiny rock across the pond.
I’m still thinking about it. Mulling things over.
Also, WordPress feels really annoying to use nowadays.
Blast form the past, this site meant a lot to me at the time i found it.
Being more isolated at the time it was a good escape to see anime – a big hobby of mine- being discussed in ways that I couldn’t have in real life.
I learnt a lot from the discussions and writing here, even helped me in how I articulate myself a bit. Every now and again I do check your tweets on X and am glad you’re still around.
The work you did here wasn’t in vain and i’m sure there are others who feel the same.
Many times i recall just reading the hilarious breakdowns of episodes and at the time i found this blog, I really needed it.
Whatever you choose to write here, i’d read. Even though or tastes in anime aren’t the same, our politics differ, the games we play differ. Your writing is quite enjoyable.
Glad to see you’re back and hope you’ve been doing well.
ps I do miss when you called yourself E minor
Hey, thanks for the kind words.
I want to do something with the site still. But what I want to do is the issue. I need to find a new balance that works for me in my current stage in life. I don’t have time for episodic breakdowns. Or rather, there are too many games to play or books to read for that. Take this season, for instance. Tons of shows to watch. But most of them suck balls to put it bluntly. I’m down to three that I follow not because they’re brilliant or anything, but because I just enjoy them. The rest aren’t worth sacrificing time for.
At the same time, I don’t have a wealth of academic knowledge to draw from anymore; I’m far removed from that world. I’m just another code monkey at a moderate sized company. So intelligent essays are out (insert “they were always out” banter here). Point is, I look back at some of the posts I’ve made — like the one on Concrete Revolutio — and still feel some semblance of pride over them. But I don’t think I can produce that kinda stuff anymore. So what’s left? Is there anything left?
Well, that’s my problem to solve.
Not there anymore, I’m afraid. I won’t delete the account for now, but I’ll probably never use it again for reasons we needn’t get into on an anime blog.
I don’t know how to feel about that.
That’s very interesting to read. I’m of the opinion that those things never truly leave you. Though if you feel you can’t produce something like that who am I to say otherwise?
You had a lot of variety in the writing you did here though, so even if you can’t replicate a more in-depth one like that, I still feel you will be able to offer interesting analysis or just more lighthearted takes that have always been funny.
I’m looking forward to seeing what you choose, if you do decide to go ahead.
I also hope some of the other commentators who were here back then come back too.
That’s fine. That means I will know where to find you whenever I want to check in on you.
I just found the name choice unique. Always had the imagery of you typing out your pieces like someone would be playing the piano.
I’ve always enjoyed coming here after I’ve watched my shows. Most places would only be positive, but not here. You even reviewed some shows that I didn’t have any care about, but would end up liking.
Personally, I stopped watching anime once I learned MAPPA shits on their animators and artists. So I’d most likely skip posts about new shows.
I liked when you tried out different ramen shops near you, and talked about them a little. So maybe “slice of life” kind of posts would be interesting to check out.
Whatever you choose to do, it’s your life. I’m glad to see you’re still alive and kickin though lol
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Ah, that’s a shame to hear. Though I must confess I haven’t enjoyed anything they’ve done recently, so it somehow works out.
I’m glad you made this post even if just to remind me of this blog so I can go back and read through older posts. I had a lot of fun reading your stuff in the past so I imagine I would tune in for whatever stuff you talk about. I wish you the best going forward regardless
Thanks for the kind words. I’m leaning towards doing a weekly post just to ease myself back into things. Rambling about whatever, but mostly anime and games (JRPGs mostly).
Hey, I don’t read blogs. I don’t even know how I found this place, it’s been so long that I don’t remember anymore. Just wanted to chime in and echo some of the earlier sentiments from others. While I’ve never been too big on anime, I always looked forward to your posts and was even tempted to follow along with the weekly slop for more context on the actual entertainment you were providing. Your succinct style helped me find and develop my own voice in writing and I’m still grateful for that.
Don’t want to get too sappy, but thank you. I still pop in here on occasion, if only to remember the difficult times this place helped me get through. Hearing from you on Twitter was also nice when it lasted. Whether you choose to keep this place up or not, I’m glad I was here. If you find some other avenue of expression, I’ll be there too. Would listen to you ramble again.
I have an idea of what I want to write about based on the last twelve months of casually watching anime while doing dailies in FFXIV and HSR. Unfortunately, having ideas is the easy part. Just gotta find the time and energy to articulate my thoughts.
To me, your writing was like an island of independent human thought in the sea of corporate bullshit the web became, when I first discovered it. It always felt so refreshing reading this site, even if I didn’t agree with the opinion. Though it would be a shame to me if it ceases to exist, but I totally understand your point, as I used to own similar public website in the past. Even the best stories come to an end at one point, so I will accept if that happens, because I got a lot of positive emotions reafing it.
*reading bruh
I’m working on something. Don’t want to get hopes up, though. In fact, I probably shouldn’t have made this post during the holidays where I’d be impeded by festive obligations and whatnot. But I’ll try my best not to disappoint.
Did you want to work in academia and live in an ivory tower though? Well, having you back would make it easier for me to check for promising anime. (I have learned that I personally don’t care much for Draggle’s top recommendations and like the shows he doesn’t. )
I don’t think I would help be able to help out much on promising anime. Take, for example, this season where I only really enjoyed Dandadan.
Anime blogs are so much better than social media…
Eh, they’re kind of the same thing.