Secrets therapists don’t want you to know!
— More flashbacks? More flashbacks. Here’s a super angry Violet. This is because some soldiers had dared to shoot at her dear Gilbert.
— So we finally learn how Violet came to lose her arms. Her right arm literally got shot off, and yet, she struggled on. She refused to leave Gilbert behind, which is understandable. After all, they were comrade-in-arms. Anyways, an enemy soldier eventually lobbed a grenade at the couple, and that was how Violet lost her other arm. For the vast majority of us, this sort of injury would have sent us into shock if not outright kill us from the blood loss. But for a child like Violet? Eh, no big deal. Seriously though, if she’s human, how is she so tough? Will we ever find out the source of her strength?
— On the plus side, I like the BGM here.
— But frankly, thanks to the show plateauing weeks ago, Violet’s final moment with Gilbert doesn’t hit me as hard as it should. Plus, we’ve already seen it. We’ve already heard Gilbert’s last words. Hell, his confession is the sole reason why Violet decided to become an Auto Memoir Doll in the first place. As a result, again, the scene doesn’t hit me as hard as it should. Finally, we know how young Violet was back then, and how young she still is now. So yeah, I’m not exactly enamored by this love story no matter how tragic it is.
— Back in the present, Violet goes all the way to that same fortress and starts digging through the rubble. She has to know he’s long dead by this point, but I suppose finding his body could provide some comfort. She could get closure and also give him a proper burial.
— All of a sudden, Claudia casually walks up to her. He said he knew she’d be here. We later see a car waiting for him, so he only just arrived. I feel as though it would’ve made more sense if he had actually come early and waited for Violet to show up. Otherwise, it’s just too coincidental that they both happened to arrive at the same time.
— According to Claudia, she was found at the base of some stairs. So with Gilbert’s last breath, he saved Violet by pushing her out of the way of the falling rubble. Man, I wish I was emotionally engaged right now. I really, really do. I just don’t feel anything for all of the reasons I listed above.
— Violet wants to know why Claudia lied to her back at the hospital. They all lied to her. They lied to a child. I know they had good intentions, but still… what was he hoping to happen? What was the best case scenario? Was Claudia hoping to tell her in a few more years, and she’d just shrug it off? The truth was going to wreck her sooner or later. Wouldn’t you rather deal with it right away? I would. I wouldn’t also want to compound matters by lying.
— At first, Violet refuses to come back home with him, so Claudia says he will stay here as well. I sure hope he remains a mentor to the girl and nothing more. I sure do hope that.
— Claudia: “He definitely didn’t see you as a tool of warfare.” But near the end of last week’s episode, Claudia himself questioned why Violet was still on the front lines. I like to think Gilbert could’ve gotten her out of there if he really wanted to. At the very least, he could’ve spared her from the last battle. I feel as though he wanted her there to ensure victory, and isn’t that using her as a tool of warfare? Could any of us send a young child into war just to guarantee victory? Note, also, that the last battle — or any of them! — wouldn’t have necessarily been lost without her. Gilbert may have only thought that he needed her. Violet was a great fighter, sure, but it’s not like a single combatant can change the entire course of a battle by herself. This isn’t a video game.
— Eventually, Violet relents and goes home with Claudia. After all, what choice does she have? She can either die or live on, and Gilbert wanted her to live on. Dying would not only disrespect his final wishes, she’d also be throwing away his last sacrifice.
— Claudia should give it a rest, though. He finally convinced her to come home. Great. On the other hand, he doesn’t have to keep asking her over and over if she’s okay while they’re trapped in a car together. Give the grieving girl some damn space.
— But nope, the guy keeps talking.
— Eventually, our party runs into a blockade. Why? Because the town ahead has been attacked by an anti-peace faction… oh boy. This has been a looming threat in the series for quite some time now. Unfortunately, the hard-fought peace that they have earned is rather fragile. I wonder how this subplot is going to play out in the final few episodes. I hope it isn’t something that can be resolved by writing a goddamn letter. Man, I’d be so disappointed if that happens.
— For some reason, Violet sees her younger self saluting her outside the car. Okay…
— Violet has returned home, but she hasn’t returned to work. Cattleya thinks Benedict would be the best person to see her, but we haven’t spent any time with him all season. As such, we have no idea why she would think this.
— Our heroine is huddled up in her room. Cattleya finally decides to drop by with some food, but the despondent girl is even less talkative than ever. We really don’t know how long Violet’s been like this. Has it been one week? One month? Two months? The time span is important, because if our heroine’s only been out for a week, then I’d say give her more time to grieve. On the other hand, more than a month is worrisome.
— So of course, Violet blames herself. She thinks that this is her punishment for all the bad things she’s done. Claudia’s words from the very first episode continue to haunt her, and as a result, the girl bears the guilt of losing Gilbert. That’s kinda messed up. She needs help, man. This is the sort of thing that can take people months or perhaps even years to get over. And what’s even worse is how Claudia truly believes Violet has to decide on her own what she should do next. She’s a child! If this was the real world, Violet’s best bet would be therapy. But since this is anime fantasy land, all bets are off.
— It would also be a bigger slap in the face if Violet recovers too quickly. Imagine if her friends simply writes her a letter, and it does the trick. If our heroine is A-OK again by the end of the episode, I’m going to be so disappointed.
— Oh hey, this guy just showed up. He’s, uh… that girl’s older brother. I think her name is Luculia. I don’t remember his name, unfortunately.
— Violet later has a nightmare where she gets to see Gilbert again, but he sure does sound more like Dietfried than himself. Again, her guilt is weighing on her.
— Funnily enough, writing a letter might help the girl. They say if you want closure, you should write a letter to the person in question. You don’t have to send it. You don’t have to do anything with the letter. Just writing the letter itself is therapeutic. This will allow you to work through your unresolved feelings and emotions. Violet could imagine what she would say to Gilbert if he was alive. Confess her feelings to him. Get everything off her chest so that she can move forward in life.
— Or scream out a window then punish this poor stuffed animal. Either or…
— Violet also tries choking herself, but she eventually gives up as tears stream down her face. This time, I don’t love the BGM.
— All of a sudden, someone knocks on her door. A letter has come for her. Oh no, don’t tell me that’s where this is going.
— Do these two have a thing? I’m just sayin’… they sure do hang out a lot.
— But before Violet can read the letter that she’s received, she will apparently help the friendly old man with the rest of his deliveries. Okay then.
— I get what the friendly old man is trying to say, but oh man, I do not agree with him: “No letter deserves to go undelivered.” Yeah, uh, no. Some letters are meant just for the writer.
— Finally, after getting the job done, Violet opens her letter to find that it had come from Erica and Iris. Yes, they’re worried about her. Yes, they’re waiting for her. Yes, they’ll help her with anything if she just asks. Oh yeah, Luculia’s brother — Spencer, apparently — wants to enlist her services as well. Naturally, the very next scene has Violet typing out a letter for Spencer.
— Violet confesses that Erica and Iris’s letter had made her very happy. Then on her walk back, she sees that Charlotte is doing well. All thanks to our heroine! That author who had lost his child? Also doing well! Again, all thanks to Violet, our blonde anime Jesus! Gosh, look at all these people that Violet has positively impacted! Last but not least, she sees a bunch of violets, and they remind her that Gilbert never would’ve blamed her for his death. Gilbert loved her, after all. And just like that, Violet seems to have fully recovered. Ugh.
She then barges into Claudia’s office and asks if it’s okay for her to continue living this life despite everything, but her heart already knows the right answer to that question. And that’s precisely the problem with this anime. I don’t have issues with Violet’s recovery, and I’m sure Erica and Iris’s letter was very, very touching. But the show wraps every single problem it comes across in a neat, little package. It wants to be taken seriously, but it never takes any of these problems very seriously. Violet falls into despair and even considers suicide at one point, but then her recovery occurs within a snap of the fingers. It’s ridiculous. It feels cheap and unearned.